Monday, December 22, 2008

The Honest Scraps That Rule My Life.

Okay, I’ve been away for a while and I was catching up on my blogging world and reading my favorite can’t do without daily blog reads when I started reading The Essential Mr. Bill @ and noticed that I got tagged.

Me of all people tagged! Awww shucks Bill, I feel so honored. Thanks Mr. Bill for the Honest Scrap award, and anyone reading should go visit him. He’s awesome!

The Honest Scrap award means – “leftovers, fragments, discarded material, and many times truth and honesty is discarded material, considered fragments and left over.” That being said, we need to tell it like it is, and let the scraps fall where they will.

The honorees are to: a) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

Now, this is the time for reflection. (Breaking out into a cold sweat) 10 honest things about myself huh? Do you really want to know THAT much about me? Well, here it goes:

1. I’m afraid of rejection. I believe it has everything to do with my childhood and my first divorce.

2. I live for comments and new followers on my blog. I have low self-esteem issues. And I picked the best forum to face my rejection issues; over the net.

3. I’m scared one day my husband will one day pick up and leave me. See #1.

4. I’m afraid my children will one day leave me all alone. This by the way has nothing to do with rejection I think, it’s just that I love them so much and I definitely have detachment issues for some odd reason.

5. I have a hard time trusting people and getting people to get me. I’m really not that complicated. What you see is what you get.

6. I love my mom and want to tell her that I love her but I’m afraid of her rejection. My mom and I don’t have the best of relationships, so I’m afraid to trust her with my deep and honest feelings.

7. I want to lose 50 lbs, but I’m afraid I will sabotage my diet again. I am forever looking for ways to defeat a noble cause.

8. I have cellulite on my thighs that I have lovingly named “Rocky Road”. This may or may not be a determining factor for wanting to lose weight. I also figured it will help me with my self-esteem issues.

9. I can’t put on make-up without my 16 year old daughters’ help. I so lack in girly-girl skills it’s not even funny.

10. I wish I had a closer relationship with my immediate family. However nowadays, I find my blogging family more interesting to get to know than my real family at this time. It’s like they get me, and don’t reject me and my quirky ways.

Here are the 7 people that I nominate. I pass the Honest Scrap award to you now. If you read this post consider yourself tagged. And please know I don’t mean any harm by choosing you, I just love your honesty.


Clarity said...

hey bibi, great post as always! to answer your "technologically challenged" question (i think we all are in some aspect) to post two pictures I click on the upload picture icon, once the picture is uploaded I hit the return button acouple of times then click the upload picture icon again. repeat until you have all your pictures posted. Hope this helps!!

<3 always

Sheri said...

Thanks for tagging me! This is my first tag too! I know what you mean about your blogging family getting you more than your real one. :) Going to post mine now thanks again for the tag!

Mr. Bill said...

This is an excellent post, Bibi.

It's good for all to know who you are and where you're coming from.

I think awesome is a little over-the-top, but thanks all the same! I'm just doing what you're doing, using the blog to express my feelings and thoughts in hopes I find I'm as normal as the next guy.

Keep up the good work!

BIBI said...

Thanks everyone for your comments.
You are a audience worth writing to and for! :)

Chris said...

Hey! I got tagged! :) I feel special. (grin)

I think we must be related somewhere down the line. I thought I was reading about ME in your entry!!! Seriously, it was uncanny.

Christine said...

what a great post, you are so open and honest about what bothers you. and identifying your fears must be at least half way to having them conquered I'm thinking. I wouldn't know, I haven't got that far yet!

The Mind of a Mom said...

Hey Bibi
I am with you on 2,7,10 ~ And hey I get you :o)
and I love your sense of humor! ~ Great post, thanks for sharing
I hope you and the family have an amazing Christmas
Take care

BIBI said...

To all of my blogging family, thank you, thank you, thank you for the comments.

Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas!

*Akilah Sakai* said...

Great post BIBI.

I never thought of calling my cellulite Rocky Road! ;) makes me think of ice cream and I love ice cream. See, you're fab even when it comes to our bodies.

I'm so very glad I got into blogging myself! I've met some great people I would not have met on the street or in the store...people like YOU. I've also found that I've opened up more than ever, too.

Have a wonderful Christmas day tomorrow with your family.

BIBI said...

Thank you Akilah. :)
And a Merry Christmas to you and yours on this wondeful Christmas Day.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

Speedcat Hollydale said...

I like number 5 ... let me tell you why.

This world is full of fake personalities and people that show their "window dressing". By that, I mean the neat and decorated view from the front window. Their "house", or real persona is hidden. I too am a what-you-see-is what-you-get type. I think it throws some off gaurd. To me, people that are open and speak from the heart ARE the normal folks - and the one's I admire most.
I "GET" you :-)

I am glad to have you as a new friend in the blogosphere. May your 2009 be the best ever !!!!

Happy New Year from the Speedy Cat

BIBI said...

Thanks Speedy. And many happy returns to you this New year. May it be a good one for you!